Reality

We tune into Spirit. In a meditation we FEEL we are the Light. We get our Purpose and commune with our Angels and Guides. Still every morning the alarm rings. We get up, go to work, face traffic... and people, make mistakes, etc . What is the point.

Meditation allows us to feel better, and re-connecting with Spirit is good and fun. However we came into a human body for a reason. Balls of light cannot feel emotions in order to learn about suffering, compassion, or joy. Yet so many seek to escape the very life they set up with their Guides before coming here to earth. How can that be ?  Why do we choose something then have a melt down when it happens ?   If we think about it, this is not so unusual. How many times during pregnancy have women had hours or days of panic, worry or downright disgust because of the feelings or circumstances surrounding pregnancy and wish they could bail ? How many times have new parents "suffered" through the first year of a colicky baby and wondered if they had made a mistake having a child ?  Men who propose, then panic in the first year of marriage and then do something to break the vow.  We all think we want something and when we get it, we do have times of despair or even panic.  It is normal...... it is part of the experience.

What makes having a melt down seem not normal, or reason for worry, is that our culture has a series of judgements about what is good and acceptable and desirable and what is not. We inhale these cultural normalities without a second thought..... and that is the problem.... not thinking.  Unicorns and butterflies are not signs of success and happiness.  We have been taught (through our family culture, tv, movies, music, modern new age nonsense, and some parts of modern psychology) that we should be "happy", prosperous, sexual, thin, popular, etc., and mostly without any effort. And worse, if we are not successful in these matters,  and not "happy" most of the time, others judge us as losers and we judge ourselves the same way. Even worse, we begin to hide in shame, lie to others (and sometimes ourselves), and our work now becomes to create an acceptable facade both for the public and  often to convince our self.  How much work do we put into managing that public facade on Facebook etc. HOURS of careful manipulative thought.  How on earth do we then begin to have authentic encounters? After a while, we even begin to forget (if we ever even knew) who we really are and  lose touch with our own feelings as our energy goes into the facade.

Why do we decide that something is wrong with our reality conclude that we have to alter it?  We feel  wrong...... ashamed of our journey, our feelings, of the very life we signed up to play! It takes courage to be REAL. And tell others to  f#&% off when they offer to make it better or tell you how to  "improve" or "fix" something (without you asking for help)........ as if what is happening is wrong. Because that is the secret message--- you are wrong  (and "I" am right).  What if you signed up to climb Mt Everest and instead, someone sent in a helicopter to whisk you away.  End of trip. End of adventure.

Life is a theme park. Enjoy the challenges, embrace them as well as the moments of bliss. It is after all the contrasts that make it count-- if the sun was burning every day we would call it the desert, not a sunny day to be cherished. We bland out our life, then go to Disneyland to have adventures. Life IS an adventure if you are willing to have it so-- and that means thrills and chills as well as ooohs and ahhhs.  Be YOU. Be willing to connect deeply and authentically with your own journey and share it with others instead of trying to manipulate the reactions of others to validate yourself.

Meditate to be strong enough to LIVE, not to escape or zone out. Reach out to Guides to find the path through the rocks or over Mt Everest, not to make it all go away.  YOU wanted this because all of it (yes, all of it) is going to change you...... for the better. Stop trying to control how others see you. Stop trying to control results. Reach out to others so you can laugh and love together about how crazy hard it is sometimes, or just plain crazy and stop being so embarrassed by your own emotions, mistakes or even very existence. Stop hiding.  We all know when people are hiding anyways.  Don't apologize for your journey. Embrace it, embrace your self, with compassion and humor, and you will find yourself living your life the same way -- with compassion, courage, curiosity, and humor. And most of all, faith in your own sweet self and the miniature golf obstacle course you came down here to play with.

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