I love you.....therefore I exist
Modern love. FaceBook status updates. I tell you what I know you want to hear. So I can feel your heart swell.... because of me... of what I said, or gave, or did..... for you. I tell you I love you on FB so others can know.... that I am part of you, your scene, your accomplishments, and your circle. That because I love you..... I exist. That you exist, for me to love so I can define my perimeters. I find my existence in my love for you.
Do you spend time together.... real time ? Where people fart, get bored , have really dark sad days sometimes and you come over to eat popcorn or go to the hot springs the next day. Can you love those who have no accomplishments, are not networked into some industry (new age, healer, author, body work, artist, psychic, coach, etc etc). Is it someone you love when you are not needy ..... and you call because you just love to talk to each other?
Are you one of the secret friends...... the one they all come crawling to when the shadows start to move in not only at night......but not in the bright of day. The one they don't acknowledge in public.... will not go to lunch with you when the "others" ... the more important circles.... are around. The one you do not stick up for or support because you don't want to admit that your secret friend has been your heart, or your backbone, or wings.... when you really needed it. Because it is not part of your Status Update to need someone or be saved, or hugged or carried.
If you are one of those secret friends, what's up with that ? Do you see yourself as a shadow? The shadow that allows others to see themselves as the Sun. That is okay, as long as someone holds your heart in their hands as you have held others' hearts over the years. If you find yourself alone in the Garden with only Spirit..... do you cry ? If not, Blessed Be. If you do cry...... are you the one that cannot say "no" when yet another person tells you you are the only one who can understand ----- but only now because the other is in pain and needy. The other who never calls to say you are the one who they want to share their joy with and to invite you into their circle of accomplishments and accomplished colleagues or friends.
Do you tell others what you really what to hear said to you? Do you say "yes" and not "no" because you hope that by giving, it will be offered to you as well in the future? Kind of like banking for friendship. One makes a "deposit" by saying "yes" when another comes crawling in pain or loneliness... or because s/he wants to share in some of the glory days of someone's life. One can presume to think that what goes around comes around ..... that the giving will cycle back when needed. Those kinds of deposits rarely work---
Love comes first. Through actions and behaviors...... proven over time. Saying "I love you" may mean love to one person, but the behaviors and actions show HOW one loves you. Are you loved as an old bathrobe, or as a standby rescue person...... or have you been SHOWN you that you are cherished, special, and someone worth spending time with (and not because you have connections in the industry you work in or wish you worked in). Universal, Spiritual Love is there for us all. Human love is a bit more complex. Cherish yourself by carefully deciding who handles your heart and how.....and how you handle your own heart. If you begin to treat your own heart as a precious child, you will not abandon yourself so readily. You will not let strangers who might have good intentions and the right words...... so close, so quickly..... without first observing their behaviors and actions. And you will learn to not be so willing to overlook the behaviors that have proven harmful or neglectful or disrespectful to you just because someone now says "I love you." The love may be there, but without a pattern of behavior that suits YOU..... you are at risk. Your heart is at risk
There is no harm in waiting, or saying no. If it is meant to be, it will not leave. You can forgive, or give, without putting yourself at risk. You exist..... YOU. Cherish you as much as you cherish all those you give. to. Choose carefully whom you let approach your precious child... your heart..... your soul.
Do you spend time together.... real time ? Where people fart, get bored , have really dark sad days sometimes and you come over to eat popcorn or go to the hot springs the next day. Can you love those who have no accomplishments, are not networked into some industry (new age, healer, author, body work, artist, psychic, coach, etc etc). Is it someone you love when you are not needy ..... and you call because you just love to talk to each other?
Are you one of the secret friends...... the one they all come crawling to when the shadows start to move in not only at night......but not in the bright of day. The one they don't acknowledge in public.... will not go to lunch with you when the "others" ... the more important circles.... are around. The one you do not stick up for or support because you don't want to admit that your secret friend has been your heart, or your backbone, or wings.... when you really needed it. Because it is not part of your Status Update to need someone or be saved, or hugged or carried.
If you are one of those secret friends, what's up with that ? Do you see yourself as a shadow? The shadow that allows others to see themselves as the Sun. That is okay, as long as someone holds your heart in their hands as you have held others' hearts over the years. If you find yourself alone in the Garden with only Spirit..... do you cry ? If not, Blessed Be. If you do cry...... are you the one that cannot say "no" when yet another person tells you you are the only one who can understand ----- but only now because the other is in pain and needy. The other who never calls to say you are the one who they want to share their joy with and to invite you into their circle of accomplishments and accomplished colleagues or friends.
Do you tell others what you really what to hear said to you? Do you say "yes" and not "no" because you hope that by giving, it will be offered to you as well in the future? Kind of like banking for friendship. One makes a "deposit" by saying "yes" when another comes crawling in pain or loneliness... or because s/he wants to share in some of the glory days of someone's life. One can presume to think that what goes around comes around ..... that the giving will cycle back when needed. Those kinds of deposits rarely work---
Love comes first. Through actions and behaviors...... proven over time. Saying "I love you" may mean love to one person, but the behaviors and actions show HOW one loves you. Are you loved as an old bathrobe, or as a standby rescue person...... or have you been SHOWN you that you are cherished, special, and someone worth spending time with (and not because you have connections in the industry you work in or wish you worked in). Universal, Spiritual Love is there for us all. Human love is a bit more complex. Cherish yourself by carefully deciding who handles your heart and how.....and how you handle your own heart. If you begin to treat your own heart as a precious child, you will not abandon yourself so readily. You will not let strangers who might have good intentions and the right words...... so close, so quickly..... without first observing their behaviors and actions. And you will learn to not be so willing to overlook the behaviors that have proven harmful or neglectful or disrespectful to you just because someone now says "I love you." The love may be there, but without a pattern of behavior that suits YOU..... you are at risk. Your heart is at risk
There is no harm in waiting, or saying no. If it is meant to be, it will not leave. You can forgive, or give, without putting yourself at risk. You exist..... YOU. Cherish you as much as you cherish all those you give. to. Choose carefully whom you let approach your precious child... your heart..... your soul.
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